Saints who endured desolation in prayer
Aleteia – 04/03/21
St. Thérèse of Lisieux (1873-1897) is often portrayed as a saccharine young thing whose heart was constantly filled with joy at the thought of Jesus. But while she loved God deeply, she also struggled mightily against the temptation to doubt, particularly as she suffered from tuberculosis at the end of her life. She wrote, “When I sing of heaven’s happiness, of what it is to possess God forever, I feel no joy; I simply sing of what I want to believe.” As she lay dying, she wrote that Jesus “allowed pitch black darkness to sweep over my soul … I suffered it for months and am still waiting for it to end.” But Thérèse knew that faith is not a feeling; it’s a choice. And so the woman called “the greatest saint of modern times” by Pope St. Pius X attained holiness in darkness and desolation because she never stopped choosing to love God.